i DREAM again

why?why?aish..i dream about HIM again n again...why?im so tired bout all of it..i tried to DELETE him from my memory..n when i can,his shadow always wit me..like he still in my side but.....i dun know la..
i remembr him but i dun know he still remember me or not?i cant hate him even i know he hate me damn much..

yes,u hurt me..but y i cant hate u?i still remember u?u broke my heart n until know i cant 4get it..u know what?when u hurt me once i still can accept u,luv u but when u do it twice,im sorry its enough..eventhough i still remembr u n u still want me back..my mouth said no but my heart said yes..

when u hurt me once,i jus smile..my frenz always said that i have no feeling but i jus keep quiet,.n the second time i accept u again coz i still luv u,MAYB!n u do it again..TWICE!u hurt my heart,dear!!aigo,but im still smile like its jus okay eventhough my heart is crying...n this time is enough..even u come n wants a third chance but im sorry...im sick of it..mayb i cant hate u n still luv u but its okay..even jus me the only one remmbr u,im still happy..my frenz always said jus 4get it,fara..life mus go on..n i jus laugh n said my life is go on now..im not sad,cry or so on..see i can laugh..and then they hit my head n said please b more serius n dun hide u true feeling..

i dun know who care when i hurt..i always think..thats my frenz think bout that?like i always think bout them?i dun know..na molla!!but frenz if u care bout that..thanxx very2 much..luv u all...=']

dear MR.A,
       thanx cz come to my life..even jus 4 awhile..u lead me to know bout love,hurt n trust..eventhough,im hurt but im really2 thanxx to u cz now i cant luv or accept anyone else..its look like im in trauma..hehe..thanx cz u bring colourfull in mylife n make my face always epy..thanxx cz give me some of ur luv..thanxx 4 all of it..n im sorry cz i cant b like person u luv..im failed..

dear FRENZ,
       thanxx cz always b wit me..when i happy or sad..we laugh n cry together..its a gud memory that we can remmbr in ours life..please dun 4get it..thanxx cz b my frenzzz..but im sorry cz hide my true feeling from u guys..i hide all my prob from u guys..u know me rite?i like to keep it by myself..

sorry frenz..im really2 tried it but its not enough..n i know it..aigo...so,frenz..can u help me?please fix it again..wit ours memory..tq...luv u all!!!
                        JELGAH..
                             ANYEONG..
                                       SARANGHAMIKA,CHINGU YAH!